Sometimes I am seized with fear.

And it feels awful .

I think - What if something bad happened to my husband

how would I take care of our children,

and what if one of our children got really sick.

How will we afford braces for Kate.

What kind of job should I get when Joseph goes to first grade?

What am I capable of doing ?

What will become of me should I get old.

And what will happen to Kate when I am gone.

Worst yet , what about my judgement day.

I hadn't even opened my eyes yet this morning ,

and these thoughts, and more slugged me in the stomach.

Like a wave of fear , and nausea.

Then I remembered my life raft....

Jesus I trust in you.

I repeat it until it's over, and it passes,

then I repeat it until I believe it,

then I repeat it until I know it!