Belinda's brain

When I find myself complaining about other people, I'm always "encouraged"
 to take a good hard look at myself.
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I had to run an errand today and as I was putting some things into my car  a man who had parked next to me decided to leave, I said to him, "I hope I'm not in your way." and he said, "No, your fine." then he proceeded to back up while I stood right next to his truck with only a few inches to spare. I thought well maybe he'll wait until I move my cart but he didn't , so  I hurriedly shoved the shopping cart into my car and I rammed my side mirror to get out of his way. I was worried about my cart damaging his truck but as for my car "Christine" I couldn't have cared less.  I  was shocked at  how rude he was and how he couldn't have cared less for my personal safety even though I had been concerned about his truck and for  being in his way. A little  later on when I was in a different parking lot a woman had drove past me and again she also just missed me, so I began to wonder what my problem was and why I couldn't seem to get out of other peoples way but what I mostly thought about  were the times when I was unconcerned for other people, or when I had been rude to them, or even the times when I really didn't even give a crap about how other people might have felt. I'm  sorry God for  the people who I've hurt in this life - you know the people who you continue to show to me while I'm complaining about others and all while I'm minding my own business. (hahaha) I  also feel bad for the people who are so wrapped up within themselves that no one else even seems to matter to them.

I need to stop idolizing people because they're  a continual disappointment.
I'm expecting to much from people and I expect for them to be greater people than they really are
but they aren't and neither am I.